Hi,
I have always been skinny. Not because I was throwing up or not eating. Trust me...I LOVE FOOD. The most I've ever weighed was 115...but any way. I used to weigh 105 just before this summer...and now I weigh 125. My friends all tell me that I'm skinny and that they can't tell I've gained any weight at all but I can tell. A LOT.
I'm 15, 5'6 1/2 and a junior in high school. I'm very athletic...I run crossing country and track while rowing or swimming during the winter time. But this summer, I just gained weight like a sponge sucking up water! I'm really really hating my body right now and I can't stand the way I feel....fat. I used to have a 4-pac...yea...not the nasty body builder kind.....I seriously had a body to die for...it was everything a model's body looked like...if not better...except for the boobs part..lol But any way...now...I barely have a 2 pac...my thighs looks MASSIVE to me...and my face seems to have gotten round..I've always had a oval shaped face.
My goal is to be 110 again. The closest I've gotten with my diet is 117. Yeah...and then I lost control and gained it all back. It's been like that ever since school started in August....lose and gain...lose and gain...lose and gain. I need to learn to control myself! My self confidence has gone down to a negative 100. I'm self concious all the time. I've never had self esteem problems and now all of a sudden I'm constantly feeling ugly and fat and unworthy.
I hope you guys can help me find ways to control myself because everytime I tell myself I'm only going to eat one sandwhich I end up eating 6. YEah...no lying there...my mom had to stop buying junk food or hide them from me because I ate 30 dollars worth of food in 30 minutes.....sigh...pathetic...and I'll still be hungry!!!! Crazy. But...yeah...I need help to go through with my diet plan. I'm def. not giving up food but I need to learn to CONTROL. Help..haha Thanks for reading this.
~lysa~
I have always been skinny. Not because I was throwing up or not eating. Trust me...I LOVE FOOD. The most I've ever weighed was 115...but any way. I used to weigh 105 just before this summer...and now I weigh 125. My friends all tell me that I'm skinny and that they can't tell I've gained any weight at all but I can tell. A LOT.
I'm 15, 5'6 1/2 and a junior in high school. I'm very athletic...I run crossing country and track while rowing or swimming during the winter time. But this summer, I just gained weight like a sponge sucking up water! I'm really really hating my body right now and I can't stand the way I feel....fat. I used to have a 4-pac...yea...not the nasty body builder kind.....I seriously had a body to die for...it was everything a model's body looked like...if not better...except for the boobs part..lol But any way...now...I barely have a 2 pac...my thighs looks MASSIVE to me...and my face seems to have gotten round..I've always had a oval shaped face.
My goal is to be 110 again. The closest I've gotten with my diet is 117. Yeah...and then I lost control and gained it all back. It's been like that ever since school started in August....lose and gain...lose and gain...lose and gain. I need to learn to control myself! My self confidence has gone down to a negative 100. I'm self concious all the time. I've never had self esteem problems and now all of a sudden I'm constantly feeling ugly and fat and unworthy.
I hope you guys can help me find ways to control myself because everytime I tell myself I'm only going to eat one sandwhich I end up eating 6. YEah...no lying there...my mom had to stop buying junk food or hide them from me because I ate 30 dollars worth of food in 30 minutes.....sigh...pathetic...and I'll still be hungry!!!! Crazy. But...yeah...I need help to go through with my diet plan. I'm def. not giving up food but I need to learn to CONTROL. Help..haha Thanks for reading this.
~lysa~
