Hi everyone! I'm Julia!!
So, long story short, I'm an ex-competitor. I did 2 shows last year, had the time of my life on stage and all that jazz. I then ended up struggling HARD with binge eating, and emotional eating. I also found it difficult to try and stick to some form of meal plan for my reverse diet. I'm currently 20kg about stage weight and, to top things off, herniated a disc on New Years Day this year... so I've been dealing with a lot this last five months (shout out to my boyfriend for sticking around... what a champ
).
I've started going to F45 classes as my back has healed up significantly since I injured it and walking out absolutely drenched in sweat has become an addictive feeling. My next goal is now to shift some of the extra weight I've put on whilst also building up my relationship with food. Like I mentioned earlier, I've been struggling HARD with binge eating... and I mean, eating to the point of discomfort and basically being unable to stop myself mentally. I have good days and bad days with this. When I allow myself a treat, whether it be a chocolate bar or a banana bread with my coffee, I find that I'm not tempted to binge at all. The problem I have there is that after competing, I find it so hard to intuitively eat!!! So I'm stuck in between this rock and a hard place of feeling the need to count calories, restrict myself or freak out when I go over, limit foods like chocolate and banana bread so I don't go over and then binge out after 3 days of 'good' eating.
I know I need about 1900 calories or so a day (every day! Not just five days a week of 1900 and then two 5000 calorie binge outs on the weekend). I also know roughly what this looks like food-wise because I did so much tracking as a competitor! So, theoretically, I can do this, right? I am on a mission to lose about 7kgs. I have a Weigh-In Wednesday planned (mainly because I like that they both start with a W) and plan to take waist measurements because I know that I'm likely (also, hopefully) going to put on some muscle with my new F45 adventures.
I also want to focus on my mindset around this! I love journalling and writing and want to treat this as a way to keep myself on track and make progress mentally and physically. I know that certain days will be harder to keep on track on. Team meetings are a big trigger for me to binge out either during or after. I also am exceptionally triggered by being alone at my boyfriend's house . That's where this diary comes in... to track that and make sense of my thoughts, successes and failures along the way.
Every day, I am going to answer the following:
1. How did today go mindset-wise? That comes first because it's such a priority.
2. How did today go food-wise? I'll try my best to not calorie count tooooo hard as I want to teach myself some intuitive eating and you've gotta start somewhere.
3. How was your day movement/exercise wise? Let's not forget that I'm on a 7kg mission here!
I'll also add details of Weigh-in Wednesday as it happens! I have my first Weigh In Wednesday from last week so I will put that below. Keep in mind that I've had my birthday and 3 binge days in between Weigh In Wednesday and next Weigh In Wednesday, so I won't be surprised if there's no changes. But we gotta start somewhere, right?!
Starting weight - 79.6kg
Goal weight - 72kg
8/5/2019 - 79.6kg
So, long story short, I'm an ex-competitor. I did 2 shows last year, had the time of my life on stage and all that jazz. I then ended up struggling HARD with binge eating, and emotional eating. I also found it difficult to try and stick to some form of meal plan for my reverse diet. I'm currently 20kg about stage weight and, to top things off, herniated a disc on New Years Day this year... so I've been dealing with a lot this last five months (shout out to my boyfriend for sticking around... what a champ
).I've started going to F45 classes as my back has healed up significantly since I injured it and walking out absolutely drenched in sweat has become an addictive feeling. My next goal is now to shift some of the extra weight I've put on whilst also building up my relationship with food. Like I mentioned earlier, I've been struggling HARD with binge eating... and I mean, eating to the point of discomfort and basically being unable to stop myself mentally. I have good days and bad days with this. When I allow myself a treat, whether it be a chocolate bar or a banana bread with my coffee, I find that I'm not tempted to binge at all. The problem I have there is that after competing, I find it so hard to intuitively eat!!! So I'm stuck in between this rock and a hard place of feeling the need to count calories, restrict myself or freak out when I go over, limit foods like chocolate and banana bread so I don't go over and then binge out after 3 days of 'good' eating.
I know I need about 1900 calories or so a day (every day! Not just five days a week of 1900 and then two 5000 calorie binge outs on the weekend). I also know roughly what this looks like food-wise because I did so much tracking as a competitor! So, theoretically, I can do this, right? I am on a mission to lose about 7kgs. I have a Weigh-In Wednesday planned (mainly because I like that they both start with a W) and plan to take waist measurements because I know that I'm likely (also, hopefully) going to put on some muscle with my new F45 adventures.
I also want to focus on my mindset around this! I love journalling and writing and want to treat this as a way to keep myself on track and make progress mentally and physically. I know that certain days will be harder to keep on track on. Team meetings are a big trigger for me to binge out either during or after. I also am exceptionally triggered by being alone at my boyfriend's house . That's where this diary comes in... to track that and make sense of my thoughts, successes and failures along the way.
Every day, I am going to answer the following:
1. How did today go mindset-wise? That comes first because it's such a priority.
2. How did today go food-wise? I'll try my best to not calorie count tooooo hard as I want to teach myself some intuitive eating and you've gotta start somewhere.
3. How was your day movement/exercise wise? Let's not forget that I'm on a 7kg mission here!
I'll also add details of Weigh-in Wednesday as it happens! I have my first Weigh In Wednesday from last week so I will put that below. Keep in mind that I've had my birthday and 3 binge days in between Weigh In Wednesday and next Weigh In Wednesday, so I won't be surprised if there's no changes. But we gotta start somewhere, right?!
Starting weight - 79.6kg
Goal weight - 72kg
8/5/2019 - 79.6kg
