Bulldog’s Diary

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Hey everyone! I decided to join this forum for some much needed support in losing weight. I have a problem with binge eating (not diagnosed as an eating disorder yet but will find out on Monday) and I have gained 30-40 lbs in the past 6 months. I have a lot of stress in my life and I am an emotional eater. So much horrible things have happened this year that the only thing that gave me comfort was food. I’d like to start eating better and exercising or at least not devouring a pound of ramen everyday. Currently I am about 5’9 and 172 lbs. Diabetes and heart disease runs in my family so I would like to get healthy to avoid that. It’s really hard to break a food addiction but I’ll try little by little.
 
Welcome Bulldog. I look forward to hearing about your progress toward a healthy lifestyle!
 
Welcome Bulldog. I look forward to hearing about your progress toward a healthy lifestyle!
Thank you! I’m going to start tomorrow because today I’m going out to eat with my family while tomorrow I’ll have the whole day to meal prep :)
 
Hey Bulldog and welcome to the diaries! I hope you´ll be able to get professional help for the binging and dealing with negative emotions in healthy ways. That´s so hard. Best of luck on your journey.
 
Hey Bulldog and welcome to the diaries! I hope you´ll be able to get professional help for the binging and dealing with negative emotions in healthy ways. That´s so hard. Best of luck on your journey.
Thank you! I’ll talk to my dr about the binge eating on Monday so I can get help. I saw your weight loss diary thread good luck on your journey!
 
Welcome Bulldog!

If you think you have a binge eating problem you probably do, this is one disorder that self-diagnosis is pretty accurate. Getting professional help is a good idea. You will find others here with a similar problem, supporting each other to help control it.

I look forward to reading about your progress! Best of luck to you.
 
Hi, Bulldog & welcome to the forum. I hope you are able to get some good professional support for your binge eating disorder. Stress eating or emotional eating never fixes the problem. Most of us have done it. "If hunger is not the problem then eating is not the solution." I hope you get to the bottom of your problems & find some healthier solutions.
 
So I caved and ate Del Taco (2 tacos, large fries, large Diet Coke, 4 cheesecake bites) I can’t explain how I feel except for guilty and ashamed. It’s either binging and not caring about my weight and feeling so ashamed and guilty or dieting and eating less than 1000 calories to avoid anymore weight gain. I feel so depressed right now and ashamed of my eating habits.
 
Don't be too hard on yourself! The shame cycle only makes us comfort eat. Extreme calorie restriction to "make up for" a binge just makes you more likely to binge again. You're experimenting with what works for you right now, aren't you? Sometimes the result of an experiment is not what you expected. That's ok: you then sit down, wonder what happened that might have caused the result and what you can change for the next try. Were you hungry? Tired? Bored? Thirsty? Did peer pressure get the best of you? Did you feel deprived after the past days of eating less than you're used to? Don't beat yourself up, instead learn from it.
 
Hey Dog, I agree with LaMa, don't be hard on yourself. What you did in the past doesn't matter, only the future is important.

Can you not binge tomorrow? It's just one day, I'll bet you can do it!
 
Hey Dog, I agree with LaMa, don't be hard on yourself. What you did in the past doesn't matter, only the future is important.

Can you not binge tomorrow? It's just one day, I'll bet you can do it!
Tomorrow I’m going to the doctor to figure out a treatment plan/ for a diagnosis.
 
Good for you, taking a clear stand and going for a medical opinion, to get straight exactly what your plan is! A good, clear beginning! :hurray:
 
So I caved and ate Del Taco (2 tacos, large fries, large Diet Coke, 4 cheesecake bites) I can’t explain how I feel except for guilty and ashamed. It’s either binging and not caring about my weight and feeling so ashamed and guilty or dieting and eating less than 1000 calories to avoid anymore weight gain. I feel so depressed right now and ashamed of my eating habits.
Hello

What I would suggest is to not feel guilty about what you eat. Leave past behind you and think about what you can do for yourself from now.

It can be something small as adding a vegetable to your meal (whatever you will eat) or eating a piece of wholewheat bread, or It can be drinking water between meals or setting your eating time every day the same.

Take a notebook and start making daily notes about what you're proud of (as I said it can be something small as a vegetable to your meal)
Dont give up with this and you will see after a couple of months that your mind is calmer and you will start to do bigger healthy steps in your life.

It is better to give yourself more time than forcing or making guilty and blaming yourself.

Fingers across! :seeya:
 
Thank you everyone! I went to the dr and she confirmed that it’s a mix of psychological issues and my unhealthy relationship with food. I see a psychiatrist every 2 weeks so she told me to tell him about the binging and the starving. I’m so glad that she believed me and that she confirmed that my binging is a real thing and it’s not just in my head.
 
Binging is probably more common than you think & sure is a thing. I hope that your psychiatrist can offer you some strategies to overcome it. I'm glad you spoke up.
 
Today was the first day that I ate healthy. My doctor told me not to count calories and just to focus on clean healthy eating so this is what I ate today:

2 kind bars
an apple
1.5 cups of blueberries
1 serving of almond thin crackers
1 cup of buckwheat
1/2 bell pepper
1/4 cup of cucumber
handful of nuts
1 cup of vanilla greek yogurt

i also walked my dog for 40 minutes and rode on the peloton bike for 20 minutes

my weight today: 175 lbs
 
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