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BossSomm

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Hi there!

First time poster, looking for some accountability and community.

I’ve been pretty active for the past decade with cycling, running and hiking. I’ve never been particularly thin, but usually fit and strong. Then, after injuring my knees running long distances in 2015, I found the slide into weight gain coupled with increased stress and a more sedentary job more than I can fight with the occasional hike or bike ride. My husband and I both work fairly stressful jobs, and to unwind we enjoy going out to eat, and indulging in nice meals and wine. We cycle together on the weekends, but lately our mileage isn’t enough to balance the indulgences and both of us have gotten heavier. We know we need to lose weight, but are our own worst enemies. He lost weight a few years ago by keeping a diet log, whereas the only things that have worked for me have been starving myself in my twenties, occasional Atkins successes (seems to trigger binging after a while), and running marathons. I do happen to be pretty aware of nutrition and what it takes to lose weight, and I fully understand portion control and the calories in/calories out concept. I just haven’t been able to sustain any sort of diet for a while now, nor have my incremental changes really stuck and become long term healthy patterns. At this point I am at my heaviest and can actually see it in the mirror, which is when you know you’ve changed.

I have tried on and off to start running again, as it was the fittest I’ve ever been in my adult life, but end up throwing the rest of my lower body into imbalance and starting the cycling of injury and depression all over again. And I can’t devote enough time to cycling to make an impact. I do have a gym membership, and happen to enjoy the elliptical, but only go a few times a month if that. It seems to me that the simplest answer is staring me right in the face: I have to eat less.

A few changes I have been making:

1) Cutting out the breakfast sandwiches at starbucks in the morning. I love my morning coffee but that extra whoppping 500 calories is no joke. I get nauseous if I don’t eat sometimes, so I keep a handful of Trader Joes omega mix in my desk.
2) Cycling, long trail walk/jog or gym on both days off, no exceptions.
3) Take the stairs at work. Actually pretty easy change. I work in a place where food and beverage are everywhere, and between these temptations and jockeying a desk most of the week, every little bit helps.
4) No stopping on the way home. This has been an ugly secret this year - on more occasions that I like to admit, I have stopped on the way home because I’m stressed or hungry and have a very long drive and gotten a snack - before dinner. Probably related to depriving myself and the binge mentality.
5) Cooking meal kits has been helpful for both my husband and I, but my goal is to supplement a large portion of my half with steamed vegetables. Ideally I would just eat veggies and protein while he is enjoying his meal kit but I do want this to be sustainable so I have to find a way to make it work for both of us.
6) No eating after 8pm. I have been working on intermittent fasting, and the one method I have found the easiest has been not eating between 8pm and noon. This is hard if I get stuck late at work, but then again I really need to put my foot down about staying late anyway.
7) Splurge nights and eating out - this can’t happen every week like it has been. I cannot control myself around a cheese plate, seriously. Once a month, max. I feel bad because this is such a fun thing we do, but it’s so bad for our waistlines and pocketbooks.
8) Food journal and weigh-ins - lots of apps to help with this. Seems to work, I just have never kept it up for more than a few weeks.
9) Drinking more herbal tea to help with boredom and ritual. Been working so far.
10) Joining this website so I don’t feel alone.

That’s it for now. I’ll be checking these forums daily, and have eliminated some other social media to make room for healthier online behaviors. Thanks for any tips or commiseration. I have thick skin so don’t worry about offending me. Thanks for listening!
 
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I forgot to add - looking to lose about thirty or forty lbs. I’ve fluctuated been ten to twenty lbs over my target healthy weight most of my life, and this has definitely doubled. Haven’t checked my BMI in a few years but I know it’s not good. No health issues other than hips and knees, but the extra baggage is definitely making those worse!
 
Hi, BossSomm & welcome to the forum. You don't need to change many things to make a difference. Try cutting down slowly so that you don't trigger the binge thoughts. I think your idea of not eating from 8 pm to noon the next day is a good way to start if you can cope with an empty stomach in the mornings. The main thing is eating healthy food, including lots of vegetables. Does your diet consist of a lot of starchy carbs, like bread, rice, potatoes & pasta & sugar? I would cut those down & eat more fresh veggies, lean protein & fruit. I love my cheese too, but it is laden with calories. Maybe having a small good quality cheese platter once or twice a week with your husband would satisfy that craving. We have a little platter of fruit most nights after dinner but on Sunday evenings we add a couple of sweet "treats". Lately, they have started to taste rich, sickly & disgusting. Yay! There are so many small changes that add up. I learned to drink black coffee, without sugar & only have a cappuccino once in a blue moon. I love Peppermint tea now & drink lots of different herbal teas. I buy loose tea & make my own blends.
I could go on & on, but this is your diary, so I had better stop :D
You can do this. You can find a healthy balance & lose weight in a slow & sustainable way by making small changes. Cheers, Cate.
 
Thanks Cate! I was having trouble logging on for a few days there but seems to be working now. I really like your suggestions, and it's so true about cheese. Once I get through a period of reduced carbs and focus on lean meats and veggies, cheese is going to have to be a once-a-month kind of thing. I've been focusing on pre-cooked chicken, broccoli, pickles, mustard, small amount of steak (I greenly avoid red meat or pork anyway) and limiting my fats. I've done the high fat/ketosis thing and although it worked it's not really sustainable - if I slip and add in carbs, I would continue to overeat the fats and blow out my daily calories. It's pretty challenging not to pad to the fridge for comfort food when the hubs is sitting there with chips and guac... I just keep telling myself: mmm, this unsweetened ginger tea is soooo good. :D
 
The forum was down for all of us. I'm not sure why. It has been getting loads of spam lately. I think we are all tempted by the carby snacks, especially at this time of year, but it's so much more satisfying when we do manage to say no. Life is to be enjoyed, but comfort food is only comforting for such a short time. It's all about balance. A little bit of something you fancy is fine. It's when we let that become a "well I have had a little bit. I may as well have a lot" that we really mess things up. We can do this :)
 
Ugh. Not a lot of progress. Sticking to it of course but my first week back after vacation didn’t give me a lot of time for exercise, and so the scale hasn’t moved after this first hardcore week of dieting. Been flirting with keto type patterns but I’m nervous to dip back into high fat eating because you go over your calories easily and it’s not sustainable for me. I have barely been eating carbs and tracking my foods. Calorie restriction, intermittent fasting when I can, carbs less than 50g per day if possible. I just have to be patient. At forty the pounds aren’t going to just fly off like they used to!
 
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Went for yet another "walk run" today because I was frustrated with the lack of results. Basically I dress in my old running clothes and walk in the neighborhood on the same routes I used to run, but shorter. Occasionally I break into a trot. Breaking up with running has been like a drug addiction for me. I keep doing it even when it's bad for me (kneed and hip/piriformis injury), I'm secretive about it, and I obsess about it. There's probably also a component where if I keep engaging in these behaviors I haven't really given up and it keeps my ego connected to the idea of being a runner. I wouldn't be that upset about it except for the fact that there will probably be a knee replacement surgery in my far future if I keep it up... :/ Should've just gone to the gym instead.
 
Hmm, I’m guessing most of us fell off the wagon yesterday... not all is lost, hiked yesterday and jogging now. Wasn’t in ketosis anyway so it’s not like I have to start over. Calorie restriction and exercise is all it ever boils down to anyway.
 
These past couple days have been infuriating. Almost can’t wait to get back to work instead of sitting around the house avoiding food or watching my husband eat. Obsessively focused on losing weight and at the same time the scale crept up, I think partly due to water weight and the shitload of salt I ate in the past 48 hours to make my salads and veggies palatable. Don’t want to go jog or use the trainer bike any more because I don’t want to overdo it with my knees. Just venting. Will keep on.
 
Little bit better today. Still not losing weight but I think the diet soda (I know, I know) was messing with my head. Able to eat more sensibly and avoid the cravings. Also there weren’t holiday cookies and snacks in the house so that helps!
 
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