blowing off steam while procrastinating during finals week...

[courage to be]

AHCK!

I completely need to get to work on this paper that is due tomorrow morning - and I have NO desire to work on it. This is the third year of my master's program - and I am so ready to just be done - finished - no more.

I have for the most part really enjoyed school... but this semester has been horrible - i didn't enjoy most of my courses and had a lot of family things to deal with. I also am really growing to hate and resent my job - which only adds to the frustration of being so far from home, working on a degree I am tired of.

I just need to rant for a bit - I know that I need to finish the degree so that I can get out there and do the things I love and want to do... but why on earth do I have to jump through so many hoops to do it?! I seriously need a break - but if i take time off now - I'm never going to get back to it... i'll move back home, settle down with my honey, and never make it back to school.

I just wish the next week was over with =(

I also am really thinking seriously about quitting my job. I am to the point where I have stopped caring about a few things - and I have let others get out of my control, so that I don't even know how to handle them. In some ways I have made people overly dependent on me, and in others I haven't done enough... the biggest problem with quitting is that I am the only breadwinner in the family at the time. My fiance just quit his job and is waiting until the holidays are over to find something else - and i (we) just can't afford for me to not work right now!

 

[rottengirl]

I know the procrastination factor too! I had a paper that was due Tuesday night at midnight... and I started it around 2:30 Tuesday at school. (I am a teacher)... so actually didn't get to work significantly on it until I got home around 5pm.
Anyway procrastination is probably my worst enemy in most of my life. I always get stuff done, and I always do fine at it, so there is no natural consequence for me. I am actually one semester away from being finished my masters and I can't tell you how good that makes me feel! That final semster is going to be working on a MAJOR project... there is no formal due date or anything like that and I am so scared to procrastinate this one! I have actually chosen to work with a partner on it so that I will hold myself accountable!
Anyway...good luck with things babe! I do promise that things do get better!
Take care!
Paulette

 

[MissJellyBelly]

Wow, I can really relate to the procrastination days.

My senior year, last year was the same way, I couldn't get busy when I needed to, didn't have any motivation, until time was so pressed, I'd be late to class because the printer ran out of ink, that's how close I cut it.

And you have to work on top of all that, and your fiance isn't working? You poor thing.

I'd be a wreck, and I was last year. Just hang in there and try to see the finish line. I know that is easier said than done, but I was the same way. I'd spend a whole day doing nothing, trying to avoid my papers and exams at all cost, but you know how it is, it never leaves your mind, it just follows you around like a dark rain cloud.

I hope you get through it quick, when you do start it. You go girl, getting your Masters!!! Hang in there. Wait till you can look back and be so proud of all the hard work. There are only a small percentage of the population who are doing what you do. You're a rockstar!